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I wanted to start this page because there are people out there dealing with disabilities and depression.I know how hard that can be and what a struggle it is to even get up everyday and move forward. I was injured in January of 1999. I was crushed in a warehouse accident.(Accident) I was Cut off after three months and just told that I “was done”. I had already, the year before this injury, been denied by L&I and been stuck with doctor and physical therapy bills, lost my job because the doctor ordered me off work, lost my car and almost lost my apartment and my children. There was no way I wanted to go thru that again. So I waited and waited and my body collapsed more each day. I struggled for the next 4 years with pain and frustration. I had chest pains everyday and had to convince myself that I was not dieing. In 2003 I was remarried to a Navy man and the minute my insurance kicked in I was at the doctors. Only the first military doctor I saw told me I was just a women and put me on paxil, I immediately got a headache, missed a week of college and was dropped from the program. Two weeks later my father died, the fourth death in our families in two months. I tried going to another military doctor, one after the other, trying to tell them that this was real for me, I WAS NOTCRAZY! Finally in August of 2004 someone finally sent me for an MRI. Sure enough there it was. From where the shelf had crushed me and up my spine I had sporadic problem everywhere. I thanked God. I was referred out to a neurologist who decided, without hardly talking to me and without touching me, that I was bi-polar. What in the hell, excuse my French, did that have to do with what my MRI said(MRI results). His excuse for the diagnosis, I was allergic to too many medications. WHAT!! I was dumb founded.The next year was full of doctors just like him who said I was abused and wouldn’t admit it, I was a hypochondriac, you would not believe the things they said about me. I know you don’t know me but, this is not me at all. I am one of the most down to earth, never stressed, never depressed, driven person you will ever meet. That year made me afraid to go to the doctor, scared to tell anyone how I felt and ready to just accept my fate and live in pain. I don’t think anything in my life was ever this hard, even labor. I had a hard time doing it but finally I went back in to start over again trying to fix this. That poor physicians assistant she never had a chance. She walked into the room and I told her that I didn’t care what she thought about me being a women, this is real. I told her I was tired and I had enough. She went thru my charts, looked at my Mri, talked to the doctor and then filled out the forms to reopen my claim. Of course, it was denied, so I hired an attorney,his name is Robert Allen. He and his associates have supported me all the way. If you live near here you really need to call him. He is in Tacoma, WA and works for Luce and Associates(contact information). They are the most compassionate people. I cried in his office and he never said anything about me being a women, or any negative remarks, he just put his hand over mine on the table and looked me dead in the eye and said “You never have to deal with them again. I will do it for you.” I am crying now just talking about it. Me this level headed women, driven and down to earth sat there broken, depressed and hallow. But I never had to talk to L&I, he is doing what he said he would do. If I did not have the amount of faith that I have in God there is no way that I would be here today to tell you this story. God has kept me here for a reason, I lived thru the accident for a reason. The day that I started thinking about using this site to reach others was the day that this broken body finally got off the couch. Every one always says “Except by the grace of God”, well, we are the exception. We are the disabled and dragged bodies left behind by a system that is non-believing. If we are not crawling on our hands and knees and asking for help, they close the door. I tell you what, I believe you. I am you. And even though I hurt every day, and I still have so many sleepless nights, I am going to be the battering ram that throws that door open. I will make sure that they will never be able to close it again. Cause you know what, God gave me intelligence and he taught me how to use my words and my voice and here I am!! I will not sit anymore. I will not be quiet. They will listen to me. We may seem normal to every one else but it is time that someone open us up and lets them see the injured souls of society. It is time that someone gave us HOPE. Check On My Progress We are Looking for your stories so that we can bring them together to show our lawmakers exactly what is happening to our work force. We would love to include yours. Email your story to Hope | The First Spark Of Hope Forum is here to give you hope. The people who post here are just like you. We want it to give you hope. Feel free to browse it and or post. Maybe you will find someone who is going thru the same things you or maybe your story will help someone else. The whole point is for all of us to stick together and instead of suffering alone we can live together and get thru it instead of over it. We just ask that you please respect the people who post here some of the content on the forum may contain subjects that are sensitive. If your post is inappropriate, offensive or just plain rude, then it will be removed by our web content editor. IF YOU HAVE AN ATTORNEY, COUNSELOR OR PAGE YOU WOULD LIKE US TO LINK TO PLEASE EMAIL Hope The Hope Prayer God, please bless this page and our cause to bring hope to a world that is so hard and silent. Help us to open ears and teach people to speak the right words to heal a nation of pain. Please use us to help you heal your crippled children and make them giants among the people of this your earth. | We offer free couseling and life advisor consultations. If you would like a consultation or referral please email Hope We do have a minister, life couselor, beauty editor and writer on staff, ready to help you. Send us your story so we can post it. There are more people out there just like you who need to hear about it. The more we stick together the stronger we are. Don't let those people who tear you down win. We are here, standing strong and right by your side. Hope |
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